The moment I realized I have grew up

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It is beautiful to grow up with all the things happening around us but we don't realize that we are growing up and we hope that things will be smooth as always and when we realized that we are grown up things has changed a lot beyond our expectations. 

 Last month was full of festival , Bengali's biggest festival “Durga Pujo”, Navaratri , Lakshmi Puja etc and every streets were glowing with color of joys and happy faces at the every corner. This year my "Pujo" was not what I had dreamed of just like every year . On the day of Mahalaya one of my close relatives passed away, it was a sudden unexpected death as he was just 50 years old without any chronic diseases and died of cardiac arrest. The entire family could not bear such loss and some of them are still in grief. On the day of Panchami my mother in law was admitted in hospital for sudden increase of blood sugar level and Hyperthyroidism. It was only me and my wife were doing all the necessities to restore her health soon as possible . Buying of higher spectrum medicines from far away, keeping an eye on her as well as looking around the hospitals for all the available services in hospital premises if she needs any helping hand . We were doing all the things with . 

It is so weird to grow up but it is much more weird that not to realize that we have grown up and growing up doesn't mean only age , it's something that called responsibilities and duties. At the moment I have finally realized that I have grown up, things has changed a lot with so much of responsibilities, taking care of my elder ones , looking out at my family , fulfilling their needs in every way I can but I have never realized it before. As I am growing up it seems like I am prepared for it but actually it changes in a jiffy. The moment I realized that I grew up , I felt myself alone in the crowd, I missed my elder's support and I realized that all I have to do it myself as the elders need my support including my parents and everyone in my family who are having some faith in me that I will sort it out of everything .

 Believe me all my lives I have looked forward for the moment when I would be on my own when I have to make my own decisions, should I take a nap or not but when the moment has came, but actually it is getting difficult. Sometime it is fun with new responsibilities as like I have to do a lot of things but then I feel daunted. But I believe I have that courage and capabilities to fulfil the responsibilities, after all I have realized the I have grew up .Whatever decision I make , I am going to be prayerful about it and hopefully I will always make the best decision for my family , myself, friends and everybody.